So first off, this is more of a rant/thought-provoking post; basically, I'm trying to figure out new life experiences I am facing as of now and I'm just voicing out my processing.
Second, I do still think of this blog as a critic/review page, therefore, when I get the chance or fill up to it, I will once in a while post reviews of media, entertainment, and whatever is on my mind. So without further ado, let's get this thought bubble out there!
Most people don't know this, but when I started this blog, I was a young girl just entering her twenties with big dreams of an online career by writing reviews and singing on YouTube. I started my blog on my last year of community college. It started off with just a few of my papers that I wrote in my World Literature classes, and then it progressed into reviews on other forms of entertainment media (books, music, celebrities, etc.). But within two years of starting this fun idea of earning a living from my writings, I fell into a deep depression. I had already been living with my parents for four years longer than expected, and being in a rural area with no job, transportation, or friends/anyone relatively close to my age, I was slowly sinking into a dark spell of sorrow. And to add to that, my YouTube and blog dreams weren't going anywhere. I thought I was never going to leave my little hometown, especially since I seemed so irrelevant and invisible to the rest of the world. All that changed for me when I met my significant other in 2012; he made me feel worthy and capable of doing anything, and he still does to this day (we will be celebrating our sixth anniversary this April). He encouraged me to get a job - which I did and still have to this day - and to further my education. In the beginning of 2015, we both packed up our belongings and moved to the Phoenix Metro Area to further our education, which leads to the next part of this plot.
As I started my schooling at Arizona State University, I decided to work on receiving my Bachelor's degree in English Literature and a minor in Dance. Being considered a transfer student did have it's pros and cons; I got to finish my degree quicker, but I didn't get to take some of the classes I was interested in because they were not upper level classes. I did get to post a few blogs, but with the distractions of my schooling, job, social life, family, and apartment/home cleanliness (which is very hard to for a person with Attention Deficient Disorder), I had to put my writings, music, and blog - yet again - to the side. Add depression to all that mix, there were a few times I was a complete mess. But it all paid out in the end; I received both my degrees in May 2017! Now that all that has been achieved, I am now faced with the need to make next few decisions.....*starts nail-biting and pulling out my hair as I start to think about it.*
Like it always is, when I inform people that I have a degree in English Lit., the first question that always befalls my ears is "Are you going to be a teacher?" This was never my decision; when I -finally - had decided to pursue a degree in English, my mind was set in writing; I wanted to be involved with writing or be a writer (which I still want to do). I thought perhaps editing or publishing would be a good career path for my future. An internship training class almost killed that dream, but I am still being optimistic about it. But now I am faced with another dilemma as of late...
After I graduated, "adult issues" hit me hard. I took on a management position at my job so I could contribute more to rent, then we almost got evicted because the new managers at my apartment complex had an issue with my pets (they also entered my home on a day that I hadn't started cleaning, therefore, my home - in their words - was a "pig-sty." Luckily, I had a friend that took on my pets as I was able to clean the apartment and find a new one. To add to this, I started my management training DURING THE HOLIDAYS! I've worked retail for more than five years, and this was the first time I got close to quitting my job. I am getting back on my feet, but due to my job, I am in a rut and feel stuck. I have a degree, but all the other places that view my resume are only interested in my sales experience; I want to get started in a writing/reading career and out of retail! Teaching is still an option, but I will need to get a teaching certificate before I can teach in my state (I either need a degree in Education or an Alternative Teaching Certificate, which I have neither). All of this stress has led to me having anxiety and I am depressed almost everyday.
Things will change soon, I can feel it. I just hope it will be soon. Thank you all who was able to get through this rant. I am in the middle of transitioning this blog to another social media page called Minds.com. If you want to keep updated on any reviews or opinions, you can go to the link below; I will keep this blog, but it will only have my thoughts or sneak peeks of future reviews; my Minds blog will now be my official blog.
Until next time, I will do my best to keep you all updated. Have a blessed day/night/week(end)/month/year!
*https://www.minds.com/Hipsy
Second, I do still think of this blog as a critic/review page, therefore, when I get the chance or fill up to it, I will once in a while post reviews of media, entertainment, and whatever is on my mind. So without further ado, let's get this thought bubble out there!
Most people don't know this, but when I started this blog, I was a young girl just entering her twenties with big dreams of an online career by writing reviews and singing on YouTube. I started my blog on my last year of community college. It started off with just a few of my papers that I wrote in my World Literature classes, and then it progressed into reviews on other forms of entertainment media (books, music, celebrities, etc.). But within two years of starting this fun idea of earning a living from my writings, I fell into a deep depression. I had already been living with my parents for four years longer than expected, and being in a rural area with no job, transportation, or friends/anyone relatively close to my age, I was slowly sinking into a dark spell of sorrow. And to add to that, my YouTube and blog dreams weren't going anywhere. I thought I was never going to leave my little hometown, especially since I seemed so irrelevant and invisible to the rest of the world. All that changed for me when I met my significant other in 2012; he made me feel worthy and capable of doing anything, and he still does to this day (we will be celebrating our sixth anniversary this April). He encouraged me to get a job - which I did and still have to this day - and to further my education. In the beginning of 2015, we both packed up our belongings and moved to the Phoenix Metro Area to further our education, which leads to the next part of this plot.
As I started my schooling at Arizona State University, I decided to work on receiving my Bachelor's degree in English Literature and a minor in Dance. Being considered a transfer student did have it's pros and cons; I got to finish my degree quicker, but I didn't get to take some of the classes I was interested in because they were not upper level classes. I did get to post a few blogs, but with the distractions of my schooling, job, social life, family, and apartment/home cleanliness (which is very hard to for a person with Attention Deficient Disorder), I had to put my writings, music, and blog - yet again - to the side. Add depression to all that mix, there were a few times I was a complete mess. But it all paid out in the end; I received both my degrees in May 2017! Now that all that has been achieved, I am now faced with the need to make next few decisions.....*starts nail-biting and pulling out my hair as I start to think about it.*
Like it always is, when I inform people that I have a degree in English Lit., the first question that always befalls my ears is "Are you going to be a teacher?" This was never my decision; when I -finally - had decided to pursue a degree in English, my mind was set in writing; I wanted to be involved with writing or be a writer (which I still want to do). I thought perhaps editing or publishing would be a good career path for my future. An internship training class almost killed that dream, but I am still being optimistic about it. But now I am faced with another dilemma as of late...
After I graduated, "adult issues" hit me hard. I took on a management position at my job so I could contribute more to rent, then we almost got evicted because the new managers at my apartment complex had an issue with my pets (they also entered my home on a day that I hadn't started cleaning, therefore, my home - in their words - was a "pig-sty." Luckily, I had a friend that took on my pets as I was able to clean the apartment and find a new one. To add to this, I started my management training DURING THE HOLIDAYS! I've worked retail for more than five years, and this was the first time I got close to quitting my job. I am getting back on my feet, but due to my job, I am in a rut and feel stuck. I have a degree, but all the other places that view my resume are only interested in my sales experience; I want to get started in a writing/reading career and out of retail! Teaching is still an option, but I will need to get a teaching certificate before I can teach in my state (I either need a degree in Education or an Alternative Teaching Certificate, which I have neither). All of this stress has led to me having anxiety and I am depressed almost everyday.
Things will change soon, I can feel it. I just hope it will be soon. Thank you all who was able to get through this rant. I am in the middle of transitioning this blog to another social media page called Minds.com. If you want to keep updated on any reviews or opinions, you can go to the link below; I will keep this blog, but it will only have my thoughts or sneak peeks of future reviews; my Minds blog will now be my official blog.
Until next time, I will do my best to keep you all updated. Have a blessed day/night/week(end)/month/year!
*https://www.minds.com/Hipsy
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