Looking Back at my Blog

I will be surprised if any of you still read my blog; it has been a full year since I posted anything on it. When I first started this blog, I wanted it to be like a critic's view on media that interested me (just like other bloggers do). I was a girl that wanted to be known for her writings and reviews, possibly earn some money while writing about things she loved. There came a time while writing my blogs that I entered a state of depression. I was starting to realize that I was a lonely person that still lived in her old town with no friends except the ones on the computer. Sure, I had old friends that would visit our home and school towns, and I could have easily picked up a phone and called some of them, but I was becoming so depressed that I didn't want to talk to anyone. I lived with my parents and I still felt like I was becoming a ghost in my own home. During that time, I lost a pet that I grew deeply attached to during it's short life. I'm in a better place now, but I look back at some of my poems and short stories during that time, and I can't believe it was me that wrote such dark stuff. Depression was taking over my life. It wasn't until early 2012 that I had an old friend break down my dark and lonely walls and made me feel like I was a person again and that I meant more to someone else (either than my parents) and that I could do anything in the world. He has made my life complete. Three years down the road, and he still makes me feel like I can do anything I want to do. Some of you may think this is gushy or lame, but once you have someone there for you that stands by you, even at your worst times, and pulls you out of your depression and makes you happy, you will feel and think what I do: he saved me.

Now I make a lot of excuses for things. Hell, I read some of my blogs. I know I told you I would write more if I find the time, or if I get this or that done. The truth is I don't write reviews/blogs much anymore because I found things that keep me busy now. I work at a job that I like, but I am exhausted usually by the end of the day that I just want to relax. When I'm not at work, I'm cleaning my apartment, or running errands. I'm a college student (again!) and during the semesters, I'm constantly reading and writing. Sure, I could be reviewing and writing during the summer break. I could be finishing up my book that I've said I'm almost done with for four years now (literally just a few chapters and an epilogue to write). I could be posting more a Capella videos up on my Youtube channel. But right now, I am content on what I do now in my life:

• I read 3-5 books simultaneously
• I work almost every day of the week to earn my share of the rent 
• I clean my home when I'm not exhausted.
• I love every single minute I'm with my sweetheart
• I tell myself I need to practice my Spanish, yet I talk to my Spanish-speaking customers all the time
• I take care of a pet I never thought I would love having (a snake!)
• I'm loving my life and where I'm at right now.

Like I stated before, and this goes to anyone that's reading this, you might think this is lame, but I love it. I am content with where my life's at and wouldn't have it any other way. If I write on my blog, it will be because I want to and when I feel like it. It could be tomorrow, a month, or even eight months from now that I write on this blog, but it will be when I want to when I think I have the time.

This blog is basically now just a random blog of a person's thoughts :).